Eating Clean Week Two Progress

Week two, another pound down (six pounds in total) so I’m very pleased, especially considering this fortnight has included a hen party and a wedding, with two indulgent overnight hotel stays.

Seabass with roasted veg
Seabass with roasted veg

I’m not going to say I’ve been cheating, but I have obviously adapted the KSFL plan to my lifestyle and going forward this is how I want my weight loss plan to continue:

  • I’m loving the variety of vegetables I’m eating and this is a keeper.
  • I aim to try a new vegetable dish each week.
  • Cooking from scratch? Love it.
  • Sugar – well, I’m not giving up honey, but happy to say goodbye to processed sugars.
  • Potatoes? Don’t miss ’em.
  • Bread? Surprisingly not missed it.
  • Porridge, seeds and nuts – no way am I cutting these out.  I love them.
  • Dairy.  A bit of a compromise here.  The only milk I want is with my morning (decaff) PG Tips – happy for all other drinks to be milk free.  Don’t miss cheese or cream.
  • Chocolate? Green and Black’s 85% will appear on my menu.
  • Alcohol? A couple of drinks a week as per usual will feature.  White or red wine and the occasional cognac.
  • Puddings, cakes, biscuits? Haven’t missed them.
  • Fruit – in week two, craving sweetness I’ve eaten strawberries and blueberries.  Fruit is coming back on the menu.
  • Holland & Barrett is my new friend – finding lots of foodie things there to experiment with.
  • Fish is appearing much more frequently on the menu.
  • I’m reading lots of clean eating blogs for inspiration.

I accept that this will slow my weight loss, but I’m actually now only two pounds away from being in the ‘normal’ weight category for my height.  As for exercise, I’ll continue with yoga, Zumba, Pilates, swimming and walking, but running and HIIT has to go as I’ve had to come to terms with my heart related limitations.  Palpitations and strenuous exercise don’t mix.

Let’s see what next week brings!


Kick Start Fat Loss: I’m Hungry!

Mid way through week one and I’m feeling very hungry!  Breakfast this morning was an egg, big pile of tomatoes and good quality sausage.  Lunch was a green juice.  Dinner will be this chicken curry with spinach.DSCF1220 - Copy

What I’m craving right now though is something sweet.  My mouth wants it.  My tongue feels flat.  I’m fidgety and wondering what I can do to take the edge off.

I realise that this is all part of the journey and that the results will be worth it, but I thought I’d have a bloggy whinge!

I’ve been upstairs and looked at the dress which prompted my action in the first place and I’m imagining how great it will look on my holidays.  It’s not making the hunger go away though!

What hasn’t helped is that I’ve been swimming this afternoon and that always makes me ravenous!  Oh well.  No-one said it would be easy!

Last night I took myself off to bed at 8 p.m. so that I could avoid any temptation and it worked a treat.  Is it too early to go to bed at 5 p.m. do you think?

Kick Start Fat Loss

So today, I started the ‘food’ part of the Kick Start Fat Loss programme at Bodywork Pilates in Chester.  This is a clean eating programme which eliminates processed foods, wheat, dairy, caffeine, sugar and alcohol.  Sounds a bit extreme when you say it out loud and only time will tell if I can actually do it, but some foods will be more difficult to kick than others.

  • Cooking from scratch – easy.  I do this anyway.
  • Wheat – I love bread, so anticipate this will be a challenge.  Not bothered about pasta, pizza and all that stuff.
  • Dairy – no milk, not an issue, but I use butter to flavour meals, so will need to find alternatives.
  • Caffeine – not a problem seeing as I ditched it a couple of years ago to help minimise palpitations.
  • Alcohol – I was only having a couple of glasses of wine a week, so no loss.
  • Sugar – the hardest ask for me.  Love honey in particular and expect I will crave good quality chocolate.

My ‘go to’ comfort foods are porridge with banana, seeds and honey, thickly buttered bread, rice cakes with almond butter and Green & Black’s chocolate.  I won’t be giving these up forever, but I do need a kick start so they have to go for now.

I started the exercise part yesterday and found it OK, so anticipating that I will be able to keep it up in addition to my weekly swim, zumba and yoga classes.

So, here’s what I ate for lunch and dinner today.


Sirloin steak with roasted aubergine, tomatoes, peppers and asparagus.


Lunch was asparagus and omelette.

It’s now 8:30 and am I hungry? Yes.  But I’m not sure if it’s real hunger or a craving for something sweet. Oh well, you can’t blog and eat at the same time!

Wish me luck guys!

My Motivation Has Gone AWOL



After a few weeks of positive thinking, getting back into the running, eating lots of lovely fruit and veg etc. all of a sudden my motivation has disappeared.  I feel bad about it but cannot clamber back onto the rails.

I’m trying to work out what’s gone wrong and I think it stems from a break in routine which started with missing a class at gym, then skipping a healthy lunch in favour of a steak pie, and it’s all gone down hill from there on.  On the other hand, the weather has been dismal and cold so that could be affecting my mood too.

I need to jump start my motivation but have absolutely no idea how to do it. Last time I had a reboot was on holiday in January, when I read lots of inspiring articles and really got into it.

Each day I start off with porridge, seeds and honey and tell myself that today is going to be a good health day.  It starts to go wrong at lunchtime when I’m faced with the healthy green soup I’ve made, but just don’t want to eat, so I have a slab of bread and butter to go with it.  So why are you buying bread? I can hear you ask.  Good point.  I don’t know.  I get to the supermarket with a list and then just ignore it.

It’s obvious to me, reading this back, that I have no willpower.  Am I really waiting for another wake up call before I address the issue?

I regularly think about going to Slimming World or Weight Watchers, but the couple of times I’ve tried it I’ve only lasted a week or two as I really don’t like this sitting round in a circle stuff.

I’ve read every diet book under the sun and often buy a new one in the vain hope that it will have the magical answer.  I already know what the answer is, move more and eat less!

Right.  That’s enough moaning.  Let’s have some action.  Would it help if I made myself accountable to someone?  You maybe?  What if I wrote about my plans and how they’re going?  I’m not going to document my weight because I’m too ashamed to tell you.  Let’s go with this as a plan:

  1. Any fruit and veg is better than none
  2. Any exercise is better than none
  3. Will this food/exercise decision you are about to make take you nearer your goal or further away from it?
  4. Make being healthy your priority.  Put it at the top of your ‘to do’ list.
  5. You are OK now, being healthier will simply improve things, not turn you from a bad person into a good person.
  6. Biscuits are not a ‘treat’ for your body
  7. If you could ask your body what it wanted, instead of your brain, would it really say chocolate?
  8. Are you really hungry or just bored?
  9. Take one day at a time and don’t write off the whole week because of one bad day.
  10. Don’t wait ’til Monday, or April, or after your holidays, or after the summer, or after Christmas, or next year to start! Start right now!!

Emotional Eating

It really is no big secret as to why I’m overweight.  I eat. A lot. When I’m happy.  When I’m sad.  When I’m celebrating.  When I’m commiserating.  I know it’s destructive behaviour and that I should be at least a stone lighter, but somehow, I’m stuck in this same old pattern.  Four years ago after the shock of having a SCAD heart attack, I lost a stone in a matter of weeks.  I ate no chocolate, no cake, no crisps. In short, I was motivated with a capital M.  So why can’t I apply that same self discipline now?  I know what to do, I cook from scratch, I have plenty of time, I work out regularly and I’m really organised.


The crux of it is, I’m an emotional eater.  I often feel an emptiness which I interpret as hunger.  Today for example, my heart is playing up (I have an irregular beat since my SCAD with runs of premature atrial contractions.) I feel like it is turning over in my chest and I’m not happy about it!!  So what do I do?  I eat a biscuit.  As if that is going to make the slightest bit of difference (well not in the right direction at any rate).  I know it’s wrong, but I still go right ahead and do it anyway.

On Saturday, I was standing in the queue in John Lewis, thinking ‘green tea’ and when I got to the counter I said ‘decaff cappuccino’ and helped myself to a bar of Green & Blacks white chocolate while I was at it.  My heart said ‘you deserve a treat’ then minutes later, after I’d eaten it, my mind said ‘ you’re a failure!’

Part of me thinks ‘I may not live that long, let’s enjoy life and eat cake’.  The other part of me says ‘I’m really healthy, I won’t let this heart problem get me down’.  Today the cake lover is winning.  Maybe tomorrow the healthy me will come out to play again.  I hope so!!